Mistress,
This blog comes on the heels of a very serious conversation we had earlier today where You asked me to truly look inside myself and consider if TPE was right for me and at this time in my life. i would like to expound with a thorough, lengthy post that captures all that's running through my head right now, complete with historical review and synopsis, moving forward action plans, blah, blah blah. Truth is, i'm still working on it, but i would like to at least write down what i have now, in the vein that You said it didn't have to be anything grandiose, just something to show that i was thinking about You and making an effort.
Ok, so here is where i'm at. i recognize that our "connection" has been weakened this past few weeks. i want it back. i want to make the effort to get it back. i know i must take the initiative and modify my schedule and behavior in order for this to happen. So, in summary - i miss the connection with You, i want it back, i want to be underneath Your wings again.
As far as the TPE thing goes and my interest, aptitude, and realistic ability for it. i do want it. i do crave it. i am a little nervous about it. But the truth is, the TPE has nothing to do with it...it's the concept of becoming that vulnerable to someone, that dependent. Scary. But let me put it this way in reverse: i do have the ability (i'll just make it happen, i can do anything! (yes, cocky business guy talking)); i do have the aptitude, i think You've seen some evidence of that; and finally, my interest? Absofuckinglutely! Given we do have that connection once we meet in real time. i think You said it yourself, we simply have to get that first meeting and see if we click in person. But yes, we both clear that hurdle, and i swear, i will subject myself to Your behavior modification with the express purpose to be Your complete slave.
In summary...
- yes, Mistress
- please, Mistress
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